Modern Day Racism

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The very serious function of racism … is distraction. It keeps you from doing your work. It keeps you explaining, over and over again, your reason for being. Somebody says you have no language and so you spend 20 years proving that you do. Somebody says your head isn’t shaped properly so you have scientists working on the fact that it is. Somebody says that you have no art so you dredge that up. Somebody says that you have no kingdoms and so you dredge that up. None of that is necessary.” Toni Morison

I began this post by asking myself, what is my intention behind writing this post? From what I learned from reading Gary Zukav’s book The Seat of the Soul, and how we all act and react with an intention, with what we do, and what we say. This topic has been on my mind for more than three years. I know how sensitive this topic is, I have to be very careful with the way I approach this topic, what I learned from my past with racism, how and when to speak about it, stop for a moment, and think about it with a clear mind, because to accuse someone with racism is dangerous, it could put their lives in danger. 

Though recently, my doubts about invisible racism on so many levels have been confirmed, and I will explain them in full length through this post.

First, I will shortly explain my own story regarding racism, which I already did in so many other posts, but I will explain it again, so you can see where I’m coming from and how I came to my conclusions about this subject and I know that I’m not the only one out there feeling it or had experienced it. In my school years, all I had to be a dark-skinned girl to be the main target of racist kids at school to them they didn’t need to know my background or anything else to call me the N-word, basically in the middle east all you have to be a dark-skinned to be called with the N-word, Every morning a white girl will wait for me in the schoolyard to shower me with the most disgusting slurs I quote her” comparing me to an Oreo mingling with white girls” other days she will say I quote her “ my sweat will leave my color on other girls skin “, and so many other disgusting things, After graduating from high school, I went to a musical reality show when one of the contestants asked me to clean the floor and when I refused to do it he said and i quote him “the dirt will not show on my hands anyway because of my color” at that same time I had new romance in my life and the guy at some point when it started to get serious with him he said I quote him “you know that I will sacrifice a lot because you are a black girl and you know how society always reacts to interracial relationships” some other guy said to me I quote him “you know we can’t get married because you are black and in our society even if we do get married the look on people’s face, is something I don’t want to deal with” In some other incidents one guy from that reality show once said when we were on a bus and it was dark and in front of more than twenty people he said I quote him “don’t worry Shorok can smile and bright the room with her teeth” it’s a popular joke white people make in the middle east that a black person can light the room because the only white part in their body is their teeth so it acts as a light, I know it is disgusting but so you can understand where I am coming from in this post. And the Shorok I know back then never said anything because I was ashamed and feeling weak and never dared to respond. The ShoroK today will say Fuck You. When I was younger I used to think that racism does not exist in western countries, because I considered them “civil nations”. so I don’t to worry about it when I finally move to these countries, and I was confused to hear “Black Lives Matters” thinking that every life matters, right?, until I started following the stories and watching what happens to black people from police brutality to refuges and when I first went to California and me and my dad got into a taxi and his whole demeanor changed, he went on telling us over and over why he can’t take us, he kept insisting on why we should leave the taxi without saying it out loud that we are black, in the 20th century, racism was blunt and direct, in the 20th century and before it was legal and governments would protect the separation between black and white people, but now that racism is illegal and condemned on every level, every racist started to look for different ways to keep black people at the bottom and keep reminding black people that they always have to explain themselves and keep fighting for their rights and jobs. 

What frustrates me the most and so many others about invisible racism is that you can’t point at it. And black celebrities lately are facing it, but they can’t point at it because it’s hidden behind a cause, one of the few celebrities who bravely spoke about it is Trevor Noah on his show about the differences between racism in South Africa and America, that  It comes down to directness,  that in South Africa I quote him “it was more of an acknowledgment of the idea, that it was there in your face and it’s happening to you,  But in America, they hit a period where they started to change things Nixon and oh we got to be silent about this, and it wasn’t blatant anymore, so I always think that it’s a treble thing to do to people because know people have to be their own detective of their own racism” Note: the link for the full will be attached to the end of the post. So every time a black celebrity or black person makes a miner mistake or tells a joke, or creates a song or a movie that a white person can’t get or understand, society and media would go after them as if targeting black people easier than targeting white people because the latter is automatically protected for some unknown reason but don’t get me wrong white people get their fair share of backlash, but the backlash only lasts for days and then back to business, on the other hand, if black artist, comedian or a successful black person does anything that doesn’t suit a white person, the attack only stops if the person’s career is on the line, to keep reminding the black community that they still have a long way to be civil. 

So if it bothers the white community the whole world should be bothered by it, but if it bothers the black community a few would be bothered for a few days, this reminded me of a short standup comedy show I watched where the comedian said: “if the joke I just told was coming from a black comedian that would be the end of their career, it’s called white privilege” Moreover, An incident lately confirmed my doubts even more, when two amazing, kind artists, their influence on music is huge Lizzo is the sweetest, and Beyoncé is one of few who managed to change the music industry, she’s every girl soul sister, both dragged down fiercely to the point where they had to change their lyrics and some of their music out of kindness and sympathy, but that didn’t stop them from going after them, purposely targeting them with a global gaslighting campaign, the same thing keeps happening in other professions.

What I’m trying to explain in this post is that racism is no longer visible, and no longer spoken, it became hidden behind different causes and issues, and some people are using those causes as a shield from being called a racist, if a white person in power or behind a desk at a newspaper, CEO or regular white person, personally hate and couldn’t stand a black person all they have to do is to choose a cause that is related to them so they can attack the black person and get away with it, So as a black person you have to explain yourself and break your focus all the time and walk away from your path to the top or success, always explaining your next step, just like what Toni Morison said “The very serious function of racism … is a distraction. It keeps you from doing your work. It keeps you explaining, over and over again, your reason for being”

Finally, just to be clear, none of what I’m voicing is to justify someone’s crimes. This post is not an excuse to commit a crime or hurt others on purpose, I am writing about everyday life, and the reason I wrote this post is to put some light on a forgotten issue, a small difference in this world, and to start a healthy conversation. I don’t care about the likes, followers, or attention. What I learned about the ones who changed the world, they are not the loudest, but the ones who choose to change it with wisdom, love, and Art, I used to believe that wars are the only solution to defeat the enemies to bring peace to the world, now after years of reading, self-searching, and witnessing what wars did to the middle east and the world in general, plus following good examples, I realized that to fight evil with wickedness you end up becoming the devil, but with love and true heart to heart conversation is the only way to bring peace to the world and battling with free art and free creativity is the answer.

“It seems to indicate something that I don’t think is quite true, which is that we have erased racism from the country, or the world. Racism will disappear when it’s, (A), no longer profitable and no longer psychologically useful. When that happens, it’ll be gone. But at the moment, people make a lot of money off of it ― pro and con. And also it protects people from a certain kind of pain. If you take racism away from certain people ― I mean vitriolic racists as well as the sort of social racist ― if you take that away, they might have to face something really terrible: misery, self-misery, and deep pain about who they are. It’s just easier to say, ‘That one over there is the cause of all my problems.’” Toni Morison

ShoroK ♥♥

أحمد جمعة البعيد عن الأضواء المشحون بالإبداع

بفلم أسامة الماجد

احمد جمعة

ثمة روايات عظيمة تظهر في عالم الأدب من غير ضجة أو دعاية أو استعلاء، لأنها تحمل من سمات صاحبها البساطة التي يتميز بها، وفيها العمق بعيد الغور، والتواضع الذي يلقى به الناس صغيرهم وكبيرهم، فيقر بهم إلى نفسه، ويلصقهم بروحه، ويعلقهم بأدبه وفنه.

لست أدري حين أقرأ للكاتب الزميل أحمد جمعة، أهو فيلسوف يتناول كتابة القصة بنظراته العميقة وتأملاته الدقيقة، أم هو شاعر على الرغم من أنه يقول إن لسانه لم ينضح قط بقصيدة، يتناول القصة بأسلوب ساحر جذاب، والحقيقة التي لا مراء فيها أن الزميل أحمد جمعة يغلف طابع الحياة بالروعة، فهو أديب، وشاعر، وفيلسوف، تجتمع فيه كل هذه المواهب على الرغم من محاولته إنكار ذلك كله ببساطته المعهودة وبأسلوبه الفريد المتميز وتواضعه الجم مع محدثيه ومريديه، وما أكثرهم ولكن للأسف من الخارج وليس هنا.. نعم هذه هي الحقيقة التي تأتينا من كل فج بعيد، فروايات أحمد جمعة يحتفى بها في الخارج في أبهى صورة، ويتناولها بالبحث والنقد فطاحل الكتاب العرب، ويعانقون كلماته عناق ساحر آسر، بينما هنا لا أحد يعرف عنها شيئا وكأن رواياته التي دخلت ونافست بقوة على جوائز عالمية أوراق متناثرة في دفقات تائهة تسبح في عالم غير محدد المعالم.

هنا.. في ساحتنا الأدبية لا أحد يعرف عن فخامة التركيب وجهارة اللفظ وحلاوة الجرس، والزهور الخالدة الرائعة الشبيهة بالمشاعل، في قصص وروايات زميلنا أحمد جمعة، وقدرته العجيبة على اللعب بالمشاعر والأحاسيس، فهو ينتقل بالقارئ بين صفحات رواياته من صور ساحرة ضاحكة إلى صور دامعة باكية، بينما في بقية العالم العربي يعدونه من فرسان الكلمة والجميع ينحني تحية وتقديرا لتجربته الروائية الرائدة ومنطلقه الأصيل.

قبل يومين دعوته لنزهة قصيرة، فرد علي برسالة “أنا اليوم في خلوة مع رواية جديدة لم أتحرر إلى الآن… لنؤجل نزهتنا”، ذلك هو الأديب البحريني أحمد جمعة، البعيد عن الأضواء، وكالفلك المشحون بالإبداع.

” شاي مع ماريو فيتالي” رؤية

عن جريدة السفير العربي- القاهرة

مراجعة رواية شاي مع ماريو فيتالي للكاتب البحريني أحمد جمعة بقلم الكاتبة شرين رضا.

العمل من إصدارات دار اسكرايب للنشر والتوزيع- القاهرة- ويُعد التعاون الثاني مع الكاتب بعد رواية ليلة الفلفل في لوغانو

” شاي مع ماريو فيتالي

العمل الروائي ما هو إلا نسيج لغوي تتشابك طبقاته حسب المقومات التي يتم بناء الصراع الدرامي عليها والتي من خلالها نرى أيديولوجية الرواية المعاصرة.

مراجعة رواية شاي مع ماريو فيتالي للكاتب البحريني أحمد جمعة بقلم الكاتبة شرين رضا:

فبعض النصوص تأتي محملة بشفرات ودلالات عديدة، تضعنا أمام مناوئة حادة بيننا وبين أنفسنا، فنصارعها بعقل يقظ، يجعلنا نصل معها إلى النهاية. وقد امتاز العمل الروائي بحمله كافة الأسلحة المعرفية والثقافية، التي تحفو عقولنا للوصول إليها. ونحنُ بصدد عمل مغاير للاستنتاجات الأولى له حيث يضعنا أمام المعايير والسمات الوظيفية للنص الروائي.

مراجعة رواية شاي مع ماريو فيتالي للكاتب البحريني أحمد جمعة بقلم الكاتبة شرين رضا:

ولكي نصل لتلك الأساسيات الوظيفية علينا دراسة أهم المقومات التي يرشدنا إليها النص والعناصر التي استنبطتها الرواية المعاصرة.

فصناعة العمل الروائي بحاجة لوحدات مترابطة من العناصر اللغوية والأسلوبية والصور الفنية التي ترسم ملامحها عن طريق الحبكة الدرامية.

شاي مع ماريو فيتالي هو عمل أدبي ذات وحدة متكاملة، ينتمي إلى منهجية النصوص الطويلة التي تملك دلالات زمانية ومكانية، وعناصر زاخرة بالمعطيات الدرامية والأسلوبية واللغوية للنص الدرامي، كما أمتلك طبيعة سردية شملت البُعد الاجتماعي لكل شخصية، وتصاعدها تدريجيا حيث استخدم الكاتب صيغة الفعل الماضي في السرد – انتقال الأحداث من زمان لمكان حسب التصاعد التدريجي لسلوك الشخصيات زائد المعطيات الفنية الخاصة بدراما العمل؛ فيقدم لنا دراسة كاملة لنص أدبي شمل داخله واحدة من لسانيات اللغة السردية.

مراجعة رواية شاي مع ماريو فيتالي للكاتب البحريني أحمد جمعة بقلم الكاتبة شرين رضا:

ومن سمات العمل الروائي أنه يعمل على إعادة هيكلة النص السردي ويضع ضوابط تمكن القارئ من وقوفه على قارعة الطريق لينقل لنا صورة كاملة عن طريق إزالة العوائق التي تُحيل بينه وبين مفهومية النص.

الرؤية الشاملة لمفهومية النص الروائي شاي مع ماريو فيتالي:

اللغة” اللغة عامل مهم في رؤية العمل الروائي حيث ينقل لنا الصور والمعاني لفظيا، ومعايير اللغة هنا جاءت مباشرة، تحمل طبقة متوسطة من الإدراك والفهم والتي تصل للقارئ بسهولة ويسر.

السرد” الأسلوب السردي جاء موضحا لكل المعايير الفنية والدرامية للأحداث حيث

برزت لنا المقومات الأدبية للعمل من مقومات “اجتماعية-نفسية-درامية” وقد كانت للعاطفة منحدر مختلف حيث خلفته الصورة السياسية من وصف ونقل صورة “اللاجئين

الحوار” الحوار هو نافذة العمل والروح التي تنفث عن الانفعالات الصادرة من الشخصيات وهنا نرى إنه أخذ مساحة محددة حيث وضع داخل إطار محكم دون إسهاب أو تعقيدات تحول بين الشخصيات وردة فعلهم

مراجعة رواية شاي مع ماريو فيتالي للكاتب البحريني أحمد جمعة بقلم الكاتبة شرين رضا:

الشخصيات” من ميزة العمل الروائي أنه يملك حرية وضع مساحات خاصة لكل شخصية والبراعة الحقيقية هي في الترابط الذي يجمع بينهم من حيث المعطيات الدرامية والنفسية والتي تجمعهم داخل جعبة واحدة، فوضع النقاط الأولية للشخصية تأتي من الوهلة الأولى للحدث الموضوع داخله، فتتصاعد وتيرته عن طريق “اللغة، الحوار، السلوك، الانفعالات الصوتية والحركية، العامل النفسي، والخط الدرامي والمساحة الذي تحتلها الشخصية” فالعمل قدم لنا العديد من الشخصيات، رسم الكاتب الخط الدرامي لكل شخصية بأسلوب تصاعدي وسرد لغوي واضح وقد أتقن تعميد شخصياته حسب صوت وسلوك معين ومنها شخصية (أحمد القرمزي) تركيب وخليط نفسي متذبذب وتحول ملحوظ لشخصية ” الكاتب السياسي” لذلك اللاجئ الهارب.

وقد ابتعد العمل عن الشخصيات المعقدة_ والمتناقضة لتسترسل أفكارنا في وضوح كامل، لنرى كل شخصية على حدى.

شاي مع ماريو فيتالي:

العمل ألقى الضوء بشكل مباشر وصريح على الصراع النفسي والاجتماعي للاجئين وما يدور حول تلك المعضلة من هدر حقوقهم وتقاعس القوى السياسية في أن تقوم بدورها مما أدى إلى وقوع معارضات جعلت من الأمر فوهة للأقاويل.

وقد أزال الكاتب الستار عن الكثير من عمليات الفساد التي انتشرت حينها واندرجت الأحداث عن طريق رسم الدَرج الدرامي وتفاعل الشخصيات الواضح معها.

فنرى بداية الأحداث بظهور ظاهرة سميت بالوباء البرتقالي جمعت زمرة من اللاجئين، حمل كلُ منهم دافعُ وصراعُ نفسي تجاه ما تعرضوا له.

مراجعة رواية شاي مع ماريو فيتالي للكاتب البحريني أحمد جمعة بقلم الكاتبة شرين رضا:

لنرى بعض الشخصيات كشخصية ليلاف الكردية الفارة من عفرين، تضعها الأحداث أمام الضابط المتقاعد الذي أذاقها من العذاب كؤوسا وأحيا داخلها صراع غربتها التي تعاني منه.

أحمد القرمزي، صحفي خليجي تعرض بدوره إلى التعذيب في أحد المعتقلات ليخرج مهلهل الفكر، هائم ويضعه القدر أمام جلاده ليتبادلا الأدوار والصراعات.

غازي فلاح ضابط متقاعد كان يعمل في الأمن الوطني، أنشق عن النظام بعد أن كان عصاه التي لا ترحم ونراه الطرف الثاني من صراع أحمد القرمزي.

ومن الشخصيات الفاسدة وكانت عامودا حيوي داخل النظام شخصية

مراجعة رواية شاي مع ماريو فيتالي للكاتب البحريني أحمد جمعة بقلم الكاتبة شرين رضا:

بسام داود وناصر رجب وزير سابق أو بالأحرى وزير فاسد فر هاربا بعد أن لعن كرسيه.

اجتمعت الضحايا داخل مبنى واحد اسماه ماريو فيتالي الكهل الإيطالي القاطن معهم “بمبنى اللاجئين” ليجتمعا معا تحت ظلال ظاهرة الوباء البرتقالي ذلك الوباء الكوني الذي كان سبب في نشأة الصراع بين الضحايا وجلاديهم.

شاي مع ماريو فيتالي هو رواية ملحمية سنرى فيها الكثير من الاطياف والشخصيات، صراعات نفسية، وأخلاقية ومواجهات ستخلق وباء جديدا من النتائج.

احتفت مجلات عربية ومواقع إلكترونية شهيرة برواية الكاتب والزميل أحمد جمعة ” شاي مع ماريو فيتالي” بصورة غير مسبوقة في تأكيد على رؤية الغنية المتكاملة، ومقدرته الفائقة على التحليق بالأدب البحريني وجعله قسما من الأدب العالمي، فهو من الكتاب العمالقة الذين تملأ رواياتهم وأعمالهم قلوب الملايين من الناس في العالم العربي وخارجه، ويعد مرجعا في شكل الرواية وفحواها وتأثيره كان ولازال بالغا.   فقد كتبت هيام فهيم في مجلة ” أزهار الحرف” الصادرة عن ملتقى الشعراء العرب عدد يوليو، موضوعا بعنوان ” شاي مع ماريو فيتالي” وعبقرية استشراف المستقبل القريب ونقرأ فيه:

خلال مطالعتك لأحداث رواية “شاي مع ماريو فيتالي”، تلمس تجربة واقعية، تكاد تشم ريحها مع كل حدث – المعقول منه وغير المعقول. تجد نفسك أمام مجموعة من اللاجئين مختلفي الدوافع، تجد “ماريو” الكهل الإيطالي، عنصري النزعة، تجد “ليلاف الكردية” الفارة من عفرين، بما تمثله من: أولا: تسليط على قضية الكرد، ثانيا: ويلات الاحتلال، وأخيرا: شعور المرأة اتجاه كل القضايا المتناولة في الرواية.. تجد الضحية والجلاد في مواجهة واختلال واضح للصورة وميزان العدالة.

Not all feminists are women

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“It took me quite a long time to develop a voice, and now that I have it, I am not going to be silent” Madeleine Albright

I have been thinking for days about how to subjectively write this post, about how can two years change a country’s long-time achievements and fundamental principles?  Bahrain was the freedoms heaven to now being an open space to some extreme voices.  I was born and raised in Bahrain, so in the past, I used to hear conservative groups making statements about modesty laws, speaking about taking away women’s free-well but back then the government limited that kind of a speech.   If you read one of my previous posts, you will notice that for more than two years I have been criticizing these groups, but this time it is different and obvious it is a daily attack, especially in the last two years those voices became loud, before 2020 they used to speak behind closed doors, then at mosques about liberal women and how to limit their freedom, preaching publicly about how women are dressing up in public and the way women are conducting themselves publicly.  But Lately, I noticed a shift in their speech its no longer behind closed doors or just personal opinion, the authorities lately have been ignoring their statements at mosques, when a religious man behind a microphone on Friday preached speaking so loud to be heard by everyone, telling hundreds of people that liberal women who are seeking to have their civil and equal rights are sinful, and women who are demanding gender equality are shameful, and last, women wearing jeans are disrupting society, one can only wonder, where are the authorities from all this?.

For a very long time, I lost hope and faith in politics because I think politics is all about deception and lies, thrives on division and splitting people into categories (them vs. us).  I am writing this post as a woman who wants to live in a society where I am free to be myself without social, economic, or constitutional limitations I am writing this post as an artist someone who believes in freedom and equality for all, I am writing this as a human being who wants to live a freely with no  prejudices and I stated earlier that once politics disappointed me in the past I never went back to believing political leaders and especially the ones who wear the kindness and humble egoless mask, I decided that if I would ever support or believe politician ever again I will only judge their actions, not their pretty neat speech, but I promised that the day politics starts to intervene in my personal life, my personal choices, and personal freedom, that is the only time I will fight back with everything I have regardless of who is making the decision, the king, queen, my brother, my mother, my sister or my friends, as long as we respect each other’s boundaries, I respect the other person or government boundaries other than that when your freedom starts to threaten my life, well-being and my safety I will not set back and watch my rights being taken from me, for years and years, personal freedoms have been protected in Bahrain, I was so proud to tell people everywhere that I am Bahraini, knowing that as a person and human I am protected and treated equally to some extent, the sad part is that men from my father’s generation have always respected equality and women aspiring to be CEOs and Artists and they always supported women civil rights laws, But for the last two years, medieval practices are allowed to threaten our fundamental principles that been established over the years, that is a dangerous approach to allow extreme voices to decide which path we should all walk, it’s a verbal agreement to extreme and conservative parties to attack women in the streets, malls, schools and workplaces, and at home behind closed doors who knows what happens to young people and who will protect them, allowing those voices to set new rules and principles that “liberal and secular women and men in society “are sinners and they deserve to be treated with  violence”.

lately there have been voices in the country seeking to pass the (Modesty Law) which means giving religious member in our society the upper hand to forbid individual freedoms and it is aimed to restrict women from dressing up freely in public, and it’s just the beginning before we go back to conservatorship and next denying women from traveling unless she have a (Muhram) a male guardian, who would have the ultimate power agree on everything a women can and can’t do.  There are voices within the political system wanting to pass this Law throw twitter accounts asking the general public if they agree on it or not. Leaking videos and creating hash tags to gain support for the law. Liberals Men and Women are being targeted more than ever in this country, what makes it alarming this time is that now officials are allowing these voices to speak on TV and in newspapers articles and asking some political parties in the country to publicly support the (Modesty Law) and other midlevel laws that targets personal freedoms and women civil rights.

Lately, these voices are seeking to pass the (Modesty Law) which means giving religious members in society the upper hand to forbid individual freedoms, aimed to forbiding women from dressing up freely in public, it is just the beginning before we go back to conservatorship and next denying women from traveling without a (Muhram) a male guardian, who would have the ultimate power to decide on what a woman can and can’t do, there are some officials within the system wanting to pass this law by recruiting some Twitter accounts asking the general public if they agree with it. Leaking videos and creating hashtags to gain support for the law, liberals are being targeted more than ever in this country, it is alarming this time because the majority of top officials are silent about it, allowing these voices to promote this kind of speech on TV and in the newspapers, also asking some political parties in the country to publicly support the (Modesty Law) and other midlevel laws that target personal freedoms and females civil rights.

 It has been an educational moment writing this post, never thought that I would ever hear a woman go so far as publicly asking the authorities to pass the (Modesty Law) asking to enforce more authority on public liberties and female freedoms it taught me that not all women are feminist and not all feminists are a WOMEN, that there are women in some places in the world will speak against themselves, brainwashed by the uprising modern extrem religious movement in the region and this is why I wrote this post…., In the evening I was watching TV with my father and mother, suddenly my dad looks at me with a shocking face experion showing me a video of a woman, a Bahraini woman on social media shouting asking the authorities to pass the THE MODESTY LAW, which i  previously mentioned in a different post,  this woman asking the authorities even the parliament to pass this law that restricts women from DRESSING Up in a certain way in public, in another meaning she wants men to become legal guardians, taking us back in time and giving society the right to punish women publicly, and the dangerous part is that it’s coming from a woman, that is the thing that made me write this post that she is brainwashed to the point where she is asking society which half of it is men to take control what the other half should and should not do. And what shocked the most that when my dad posted a tweet I, couple of men not all of them of course agreed with me and the majority replayed explaining why The Modesty Law should pass.

The most alarming indicator that we are moving backward in this country is that those voices are being supported by some top officials while silencing others, in the past and before 2020 these voices were just voices in the void, I never took their statements too seriously,  they weren’t allowed to threat personal freedoms, but day after day the country is becoming Afghanistan Taliban, you won’t notice the change from the outside, or if you are visiting for a couple of days, it is the day-to-day that shows you the slow shift toward becoming a Taliban state.

However, This time the game has changed because a statement like that comes from a woman who’s asking the authorities to move backward and retweeted by a man close to the system, NO means NO  first as a free human and second as a free woman, when it comes to my freedom and my safety I will not be silent and I will fight back,  the sad part is that the statement is coming from a woman,  in the past I assumed that women want their freedom and their civil rights, to be treated equally.  To see the anger on my dad’s face, that’s when I realized that the battle is not between women and men but between those seeking to live in an equal world and those wanting to go back and live in the darkest hours.

The most alarming indicator that we are moving backward in this country is that those voices are being supported by some top officials while silencing others, in the past and before 2020 these voices were just voices in the void, I never took their statements too seriously,  they weren’t allowed to threat personal freedoms, but day after day the country is becoming Afghanistan Taliban, you won’t notice the change from the outside, or if you are visiting for a couple of days, it is the day-to-day that shows you the slow shift toward becoming a Taliban state.

However, This time the game has changed because a statement like that comes from a woman who’s asking the authorities to move backward and retweeted by a man close to the system, NO means NO  first as a free human and second as a free woman, when it comes to my freedom and my safety I will not be silent and I will fight back,  the sad part is that the statement is coming from a woman,  in the past I assumed that women want their freedom and their civil rights, to be treated equally.  To see the anger on my dad’s face, that’s when I realized that the battle is not between women and men but between those seeking to live in an equal world and those wanting to go back and live in the darkest hours.

I’m not exaggerating when I say that I am scared of living here, I’m considering leaving the country, painful to think about leaving my family, friends, and home, and because I no longer feel at home, I feel like I am stranger in a country that I once called home, because every time I’m out walking in a mall or supermarket I feel people’s looks, the kind looks that I can’t explain but I know how it feels,  women who dress up like me they automatically become a target for harassments or followed even when just wearing jeans and  T-shirt, so many times women stopped me in the street and malls telling me to be ashamed of the way I dress, and on the other hand,  according to them if a man ever harassed me “She asked for it” in the past, I used to see those situations as an isolated incident because I know I was protected by the law, I wrote this post, not as an activist or spokesperson for anyone, I wrote this post as a free woman, as a free person who will never give up their freedom.

 It’s nobody’s business how I live my life, how I choose to live my life, who I love, how I dress up, and the girl who once decided to become the best version of herself with no restrictions and limitations.

 “A wise woman wishes to be no one’s enemy; a wise woman refuses to be anyone’s victim.” Maya Angelou

مات النقد،،عاش الناقد!

ليل النقد الطويل…

مات الناقد، عاش الناقد، لم أكن أنوي، لم أخطّط مطلقًا بساعةِ نحس أو غيرها بنقد الناقد، قطعيًا، بلا استثناء، لولا، أقول وبمرارة لولا، قراءتي لرواية خلابة/ مجنونة، وحشية، بعنوان “ليل تشيلي” لروبرتو بولانيو، الذي رحل في… وفيه غصّة النقد، والنقاد…رواية تقول أشياء كثيرة، مؤلمة، ذكرتني، بعزلة الناقد الصديق البعيد، القريب من الذهن الأستاذ أحمد المناعي، عزلته، هجره، صمته، هو الرد على طغيان الذكريات، ذكريات النقد والنقاد، وموت النقد الآن…

أقسمتُ؟! لا لم أقسم وإلا ما تجرأت على الكتابة…لولا رواية ليل تشيلي لم يستدعيني الصمت للبوح ببعض الأحاجي: مثل رشوة النقاد، رشوتهم بمؤلفاتك، رشوتهم بعلاقة مجاملة، مشوبة بفنجان قهوة، بهواء طلق بمقهى على رصيف ممل، مضجر، كلّ شيء يأتي بعد ذلك، انطباعات، ملاحظات، مجاملات، إلا النقد…قرأتُ منذ مدة طويلة من ركن الفضول بيّ: بضعة سطور مما سمي بمديح نقدي عن أسوء رواية بتاريخ البشرية…تصور!

اعتقدتُ أنّني غير مذهول، غير مستغرب، غير…لكن صدمتني رغبة في فهم كيف يرتدي الناقد حذاء أطول من قدميه؟ طنّنتُ أنّني أمام نقاد!! كهذا تطالعنا أنباء الأدب عندنا حتى رأيت بأم عيني، جدارية عملاقة كُتب عليها: النقد بهدية، النقد، بعلاقة، النقد بفنجان قهوة…والأغرب في السؤال أين النقاد بعد أحمد المناعي؟

أما عن الصحافة؟!! السخافة الأدبية؟ تلك حكاية لا تستحق…الموضوع لا يستحق أكثر من 200 كلمة!